It is wiser to light a candle than to curse the darkness ~Peter Benenson
Regretfully, while you’ve been sharing opinions, not my own
I’ve been unreceptive to openly hearing your words.
Misperceptions painting painful dark clouds over my heart and ears.
Upon meditating and recognizing lingering inner wound’s shadows,
the insight that we both suffer is being clearly realized.
How could I have understood the truth of your suffering
without having an understanding of mine?
If I don’t understand myself -the good, the bad, the ugly,
how can I understand you, really?
choosing not to run away from myself
so not to run away from you, either.
Not covering up difficult feelings
with consumption of food, pleasures and media.
Recognizing and embracing loneliness,
anger, sadness, grief, anxiety, and other painful feelings.
I am here for you my hurt feelings,
holding and comforting you.
Allowing your energies to organically dissolve,
to float passed on my blue sky of emotion
transforming into calm, smiling sunshine.
Feeling lighter and more free
I am ready to hear your words.
Open to understanding your deepest desires;
what do you wish to accomplish in this sweet short life?
Staying present for words
whether fragrant as flowers
or foul as sewage.
Not blaming you, not blaming me.
Courageously returning to my in & out breaths
keeping mind and body at one & at ease.
This precious life is so fleeting.
What can be more important
than harmony and peace between us?
Offering my true presence
you seem very real to me;
your flowers and your mud.
Glimpsing our interbeing nature.
I can hear you now!
Do you feel heard?
A few days of Calif precipitation
has added a cup of water
to our bucket of drought.
My rain gratitude meditation continues;
thank you clouds!